It’s vulnerability Saturday! Even though what I said 2 weeks ago left me with a monstrous vulnerability hangover, I’ve decided to develop masochism… I mean resilience, and do it again! (what am I thinking??!)
That post made me realise that I’ve been making excuses… big ones.
An excuse is the bond you create between your present and the worst story of your past to stop you from moving forward. You blame isolation in the past for loneliness in the present. You blame betrayal in the past for losing confidence in what you have now.
And it turns out that I went even further… while I seemed to be blaming a guy in the past for avoiding trusting now, what I was really doing was avoiding messing up again… in any area of my life. At all. Ever.
I’ll say it again so my inner perfectionist knows I see how sneaky it’s been… if I’ve been hiding, only half showing up in my life, my relationships, my business, that’s not on my past or my childhood or some guy who didn’t know how to communicate properly.
That’s on me.
I’m allowed to blame my battered confidence for playing it safe. I’m allowed to blame a violent man for my decision to avoid taking risks again. But if I do that, I’m letting an old story live my life. And in the end I’ll know that I chose to carry around shame instead of owning it and shining a big, embarrassing light on it so that I can’t use it as an excuse for not showing up any more.
This post is a risk. I already half hope no one will read it. But then today would be the same as yesterday and I’d be telling the future that I chose comfort over change, transformation, evolution. That I chose not to set a higher standard for the level of discomfort that I’m willing to take to make me completely accountable.
I have a vision of a world where, no matter what has happened to them, people “turn [their] story into a powerful force for change in [their] own life and inspiration for others in theirs”. I can only do that with any integrity if I do it too.
We can only make history if we stop making excuses.
We can only make the future if we tell it who we are.
(I hate all selfie related media so this video is a strong commitment to stepping out of my comfort zone, owning my shame and removing my excuses. Now my future knows who I am. Join me! If you want your future to know who you are, post your own video!)
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